Tuesday 20 March 2012

Jimmy begins his journey by leaving the flat.


I leave my flat under the assumed weight of the middle-class citizen, and now whipping off the disguise, I am set for an itinerary which is perfectly adapted to the fashioning of epic days. Jailors of spirit becoming a vague respectable presence and the kind of ghosts that the fetus of intellect does well to ignore.
  I have consigned my assumptions to the north sea and formed a partnership with a little silent tramp. He wears a spotty scarf and a bowler hat square to his small frame. He smiles his little smile and mostly stays on my left side. We sprint intermittently and without warning or preparation, the packs grinding and unthreading on our backs, our lungs making good torture for our minds. In the many pubs we drink in along the way, I feel more like a junk-laden sculptor than a tramping frontiersman. But the little mute with his big boots and confident head wear - for these parts- is every bit the adventuring hobo.
 At one town along the snake paths of the North Norfolk coast, we witness the undoing of a community. Young men in fits of shallow laughter, blat about the delicate rural roadways and glare with subconscious homo-empathy in their eyes. They revere the superficial and wear the reverence on their feet and hands and heads and mouths. Famous people, all sad and gaunt for their lack of vision, consult the young men through natty devises in mutually unwitting ways. Even more tear-worthy is the calculated denial - by better educated famous people - of the boundless depth to the visions of the young.
 More youth about on the seaside high street and pub car-parks... Self-promoted young women squander their sensual allotments amid blaring claxons of soulless TV, music without melody and empty magazines; all promising inclusion and entrance into the fame-lottery at least. These girls are clamoring for womanhood, seemingly unable to halt and sit and realise the softness of their skin and how it can teach tenderness to men.
 Apart from the raging crowds the tramp and I take photographs of us alone on the North Norfolk beaches, smiling and listening to the world. Agreeing that the sea is not so enigmatic after all. These photos are now hung in a cottage hallway for purely economic reasons and depict us two as entranced by this craggy stretch of coast. Its enduring sweet-shops and dignified railways, resplendent ales, enthusiastic social calendars and stubborn sideburns on the ruddy cheeks of old men.
 Between crowded boulders and scrub offset by the vigorous long steps. Far off crumbling sea-groins can be seen extending from cliffs-edge to water like overworked arteries. An epidemic of yellow-petaled scrub, sways to the sound of shanty and kisses the sea mist and looks prehistoric.
 A special pleasure in seeing uncommon users strap off their packs halfway down the steps and contemplate failure, is almost sure to give us both short frissons, but rugged men as we are, we climb to them, carry them down all bleary and sick, down into the beasts cave as if attending to something there that pleases him. He is built like an old tree and has a pot-belly. Teflon-tough grass grows out, there are gashes down his eyes and cheeks. He was a beautiful child when he first came to this coastal town. The trouble - he tells us - is that he lost his looks by dint of a tinkers spell; Cast in a fit of spite whilst he play with his twin brother on the edge of the hard surfaces. And more hurtsome than that, his twin slipped in and was lost to the sea and the beast remains tragically cautious of the waves and their popping foams and displaced shingle. Yet, Into the soup is where he is desperate to be. Alone with his twin and their one mind.
 Once the users are delivered and attentive, we see a vision in the smoky morning mist. At least a hundred fisherman attend to the presumption of a beasts appetite, never to forget him and his terrible ways, they invent shanties and stories to that effect. Because of his beastness, they presume he wants prey. So they throw him fish and hope the fish flap enough to allay his predatory instinct. Really, the beast is just a mournful brother. He tries to convey this to the users and fisherman, he asks them truly, pleads for their help in finding his dear lost twin. He points to the horizon and the boats and then he wails, but his tongue is too wild and they all scream at his grassy belly and molten eyes, and then the fisherman continue to frantically fetch him more fish and the users scatter into the night, all mystified and disturbed and packless.
 Up the cliffs to a pub the two of us go. Our packs hitched up and molded, the tramps bowler hat straightened and proud. We ponder elucidation over the first beer, but It's no good that we tell these young people around us of the beast and his melancholy; how they should run to the beach and advise their fisherman fathers to cast their nets for a beastly twin with half a mind. Search, rescue and reunify the brothers. Break the tinkers spell and with it the dawn on this North Norfolk town. Alas, the young do not see us or hear us anymore. We have blinded them or allowed them to be blinded. We have blocked their ears or failed to prevent the blockage.
 After half a skin-full we plod off up the coast to the next town or village. We hope for more sweet-shops and railways, resplendent ales, busy squares and stubborn sideburns on faces with time to chat. I ask the little tramp:
'How long before that beast is driven mad by his inability to parley for his brothers soul?.. And how long until he tires of flapping fish?'
The little tramp smiles his little smile and we walk on.                                           

not The End                

       

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